Saturday, March 27, 2004
Investiture + PRElIM OrAL!!!
Yesterday was a fun day for all the out goin exco and the incomin exco... i bet a lot of ppl enjoyed themselves too... well.. it's like soo fun.. and nice...(although the out-goin exco got a little pissed off before the investiture) and mr chew speech was like damn bloodly long... tok so much crap... ...quite dissapointed to step down too.. hmm.. well.. nvm... at least can slack le.. hehe... yesterday wei qi and aaron came to our investiture.... janice and i went to bring them around the school... and guess wat..... they say our school was big..!!!???? Jan and i are like ???? BIG???? you SURE???? hmm... maybe becouse their school catholic high is still under renovation... tts why... Hai song also came... hehehe... SX... wahahaa.. keep makin fun of her... :P:P:P......was glad tt DANIEL came too :):):) well... almost forgot about him... hehe.... hmm... my favourite brother... the best!!!.... well hope he nv get scolded by darryl for not bringing comb... hhahaha... well... had lots and lots of fun... after investiture... went home at around 8.40... when the school goin to close le.. and school onli left mi... mama foong and the uncle..... hmm... so glad tt daddy came then bring mi home..... sleep at 10.30 yesterday.....
Wake up at 6.30 today...... actually it's quite late lol... must reach school at 7.45.. and i had to take two buses.... hmm... but make it to school .. reached thee at around 7.15... hehe.... luck lol.... well.... today oral ... i going to die le... cause i was like so damn nervous tt mrs chang kept askin mi not to be nervous..... plus.... she kept tellin mi all the stuff to the questions she asks mi... hmm.. let mi think.. altogether... i think tt i onli speaks.. around 5 lines tts all.. shit lAH...... hmm.... after tt went to TP with HL.... Jan...NgNG...... to eat lunch... then Jan.. xueying and i bought the same white skirt at $6... cheap rite?? hehhee... quite nice lol.... was on sale... hmm..... then went to meet JY and YT.... at first was at AMK.. but... took wrong bus.. stupid mi.. end up at hougang... i was like shit lah.. no time le.. how???? so took mrt... and meet them at novena.... and halfway when i call them... my phone... was like... FLAT!!!! shit.. no battery... die lah.... luckily saw them at novena... lucky... went to marina square.... saw a guy from monfrot... DUnno why YT dislike him so muchh... kept makin fun of him... hmm... no comments... after tt went home.. to get ready to go tuition... and dale.. sorry.. phone flat.. cannot sms u.. sorry... so today cannot go out with ya... anyway... i today got tuition also cannot go out lol.. hehehe....awaaahahaa... I'm crazy... shito forgto to drink tea le... bye ppl.. need to go drink my daily tea... buAI!!!
*********************** was gtting better day by day... thx to all...*************************
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Wednesday, March 24, 2004
DaYs bY My oWN!!!
two days back.. on monday... he called.....mi... i was like so happy.... overjoyed... but... it's so sad... that.... we were on the phone for 8 seconds.... And it's complete silence... well.. it's okay..... felt so sad aft tt... sms him a maybe so called "last" sms... the moment i send..... i cried... it's the second time i have dried for guys.... first is DX... now... him... i dunno why... can't control mYSELF!!!//// well... and guess wat.... i dunno if it's jus coincedence... but... the truth is... the moment i sent my sms.. the very moment my tears rolled down... IT RAINED!!! and it's not jus normal rain.. it's like suddenly.. a huge downpour... for jus a short period... i was shocked too... oh well.. maybe the sky was jus crying wif me... or maybe it's jus COINCEDENCE.... at night came home after tuition.... (no reply)....
Yesterday was a okay day for mi.. in class.... HE TOK TO ME!!! I'm so happy.... really very happy... so happy that i wan to cry... hai~.... i wonder how he feel... like wat i always say... (i onli treasure wat i have given away).... well.... but... he only tok to mi for like the most two mins.... sob*... hai~... at least he toks to mi... AT night... sms him a sms again... askin him about something... still... (No Reply..) hai~..... but.. instead of recievin his sms... i recieved... A***** sms... hmm... felt so surprised... then... quite shocked about what he said.. well he wanna to patch??? well after three Months??????? he wanna to .... well.. nvm... i somehow know my feelings now... so i did not agree... to speak the truth..... i have already forgotton him in a way or another... pass three months who was wif mi??? comfortin mI??? making me realize all the things... all the truth... well.. it's my friends and of course... him too.. but wat did i do??? damp him again and again.. wat did he do to make you so evil XINRU!!!!... Xinru.. why>??? why did you do tt????? ................. hai~~~
now listenin to the mini(four gals) first album song.... [ddun cry... my love... bia zhe ku le....] Today.. get back my chemistry test... was so sad... lost my 5 marks jus like tt.. so CARELESS!!! WAT AM I THINKIN WHENEVER I DO MY TESTS???? CAN'T YOU JUS RELAX????????
******************** ALways think before you do things.. Dun be so stupid like ME!!!*******************
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Sunday, March 21, 2004
Maybe...
think a lot yesterday......... i think i have made up my mind....... well...... i will try... K? JW? i will try hard... anyway.. thx a lot...... for yesterday... thanks..... and thx WQ for the maths question.... yup... agree with u jw... from now on... try my best.... actually tt is wat i wan too....... but jus could not control myself.... well... tts all.... bloggin stop.. one week hoildays all wasted like tt...... doin nuthin.. today last day of hoilday... need to rushed le.... all my homework first... test..... see got time first... welll.... gtg.. bye ppl.... **************************sorri to all.. wat i have being up lately..... sorri for all the weird stuff...... sorry.. it will not happen again.... ****************************(thanks Darryl and *JW*!!!!!!!! thanks)
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Saturday, March 20, 2004
sad...
jus came home from liang Jun house.... well although was told to stay until night time for his sis- jia xuan and his b-day party... i still came home.. after eating the pizza...... well.... have to come home or else mama will scold again... today didn't feel very good... the whole world is blaming mi.. the whole world hates mi... welll including myself.. dun think tt ppl care too.... i wonder anyone understands how i feel inside..... hai~ anyway thanks darryl.. :):):)....
the past few days have bring goin out and out... go school and out... basically done nuthing... no homework done.... not even my tuition one... and not even maths... hai~... although an angel was like baside my ears kept tellin mi to do... but... no mood... i can't get myself started... well who cares? Onli a few days left so why bother? well.... no dun really care anything in the world le.. although i know it's being selfish.... but.. I DUN CARE!!!.................. rather go and accompany my grandma... she is the bestest grandma i ever had............ but how??? how to go and meet her??? i dun know how??? wat if i dun dare??? hOW???
Oh well... the letters.... wrote to a lot of ppl le... but still got a no. of ppl to write.. hai~.... dun write le... no time le... anyway.. they dun even bother.. they will jus treat it as another letter....(like wat she did... somemore thought it's for other reasons).........................
Like wat JY says....... think before doin anything............ well i think le..... think le... did le.. wat more do you wan? wat i goin to do soon i also think very carefully le...... well... my mama will sure scold mi and say i'm stupid.. but i dun care.... after i have done wat i wanna do... no one will say anything... everyone will be happy... so happy.... cause there is no one to make them angry... make them become a down person...... well tts mi... haha... i'm sadis.... wonder wat the world is doin now................. feel like runnin again..... hai~~~~....... i want to fail all my subjects ..... wan to be the worst person in school.. the most sadistic gal... the suckest person in the world..... haahahahahahahaaaaa.... ************************************** The World is not round-for mi...********************************
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Tuesday, March 16, 2004
TodAy...
wake up at 9.30am today... received a sms... dun really wanna read... but.. read le wat... hai... dunn really wanna say... but... it will be beter this way... hope ya understand.. sorry.. sorry.. sorry... ......... well seams like lala cannot accompany mi today.. after seein her blog.. well nice new skin..:):):)... dunno wat to do.... but i'm goin out lol... now 12.10...... maybe dinner time go home.. the night time do homework... well... doin maths lah... my maths droppin le... must bug up...
yesterday went to had dinner at the M hotel for dinner... well is wedding dinner lol... hai~... relative again... well more wedding dinner comin up... although i like to attend wedding dinner or buffet..... (cause got delicious food) but... WRONG YEAR LAH... anyway... this yr not a good yr to marry wat... how come all wan this yr.. hmm.. nvm... ths hotel quite special also... corridor so many mirrors... all very nice... well.. make the hotel very grand... well okay lah... the seatings quite good lah verynear to the stage.. yup... the food were very special and super yummy... wow... first time food so special sia... but too bad dun hav mango pudding... ahhh... i wan!!! and guess wat.. first time my table ppl so friendly.. we had lots of fun ... jokin playin.. laughin.. wahaha... so fun sia.... hmm... the hotel give us each a key chain... very nice... it's a gal and a guy.... nice lol... next time give you ppl see... cute lah... well... it's 12.20 le... need to prepare to go out le... buai ppl.. and thx brother for ya concern... i'm okay now.. i guess.. i will try to be happy always... and live life to the fullest... :):):) ******************************* Living on earth for only one reason...(DREAM)*************************
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Sunday, March 14, 2004
AAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
All day long,
all night through,
in the evening rush or morning new,
no matter where or what I do
I dream of you.
-the phantom cat
hai~~... have gone
crazy today.... i really dunno why.. i'm like banging the doors the walls.. the cupboard .. chair and i spoil them... dunno why so fastrated suddenly... i reallY DUNNO WHY!!!.. hate myself... my mom and sis beat mi... hate them... i wanna to beat them back but.. ... cannot.. i have gone crazy.. real crazy... i kept screamin and shoutin in the house... AAAAHHHHHHH... they all wanna send mi to
mental hospital... why??? what had happen to mi??? what is happenin.. i'm so .... AAAAHhhhhhhh.... hate life.. hate everything... hate to be born here... hate it... my body hurts... pain until wanna faint le.... all the screamin and everything makes mi so giddy.. so pain... wanna to faint le... why is it like this??? whY???? WHY??????? sob***** tears kept flowin as fast as water from the tap.... why??? i wanna to die... die... i cannot ren anymore... or one day i will really become a mad person.... aaAAAAAAHhhhhhhhh... i dun wan.. i dun wan to go to mental hospital.. i want to be a normal person..... !!!!!!!!!!!
HHHHHHEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLLLLPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ***************************Have tried to control myself for almost one year... and i can't ren anymore... the moment will come on that very special day.....(060404)... sorri guys...********************************
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S.H.E CONCERT!!!
lalala.... went to s.h.e. concert on saturday... with suxian.. well.. waited for bus 166 at the bus stop opp TP... and took the bus at 5.30pm... and guess wat.. we reached the place after 1 hrs and 10 mins... wa lao............ we quickly make our way in... and the auditorium is already filled with many ppl ..... the auditorium was like so.... NICE!! and GRAND!!!!!!! cannot blame lah.. ACSI wat... hehee.... well we find a quite good seats... at side.. can see clearly lah... we waited... and finally a person came out.. is desmond... wa lao... we thought s.h.e. ... i look at su xian and she look at mi... both of us make funny faces .. haha.. and FINALLY... S.H.E. came out... yup... everyone cheered... they sang then first four songs of their new album and also soem old songs... i stunned... selina so pretty.... and she rox man... can dance so well.. oh my god... ahh..... like her so much.. and su xian was like... hebe.. hebe... hebe... all the way.... well.. she like hebe lah.. hmm.. hebe that day looks like she got PMs... well.. she looks like she is in bad mood... hmm.... they sing so nice... i took a lot of their photos using su xian digi cam lah... my skills not bad one lah.. hehee.....when the concert goin to end soon, they came down stage to see Jeremy.. well... the sweet guy... hehe.. and i quickly take su xian digicam and bring to the front to take pic... and guess wat.. they were onli about one metre away from mi... they are so pretty and i found out something too... hebe is around my height... selina is taller than mi... and think around 166m like tt... yup... cause they were so close to mi.. so i know... hehee good rite??? **dun jealous** hehee... After the concert... SX and i went to buy their shirt before headin to school...
Su xian and i went back school for the camp... well both of us stay overnight and help out till mornin... .... i went home immediately ater camp breaks... well..reached home so tired... and fell aslp in my bed.. till 4... mi mama wake mi up... then i rmb i got tuition... i quickly rushed...and took taxi to meet the rest.... ... stupid lahh... taxi fare so ex... $8.40.. wa lao.. broke le... wonder id i have money to survive mi through the week... hmm......*******************************S.H.E. ROX!!!!!!!(Selina, Hebe, Ella...)**********************************
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Sunday, March 07, 2004
To be free..Con't
hai~~.. today actually wake up at 5.00 am one.. but soon dunno how come suddenly fall aslp till 9.30... sorry. janice... make you go running urself... wo bu shi gu yi de.... jus tt last night i slp very late... or is it very early??? well slp at 2.00am lah... so sorry....
Thanks Aaron... for comfortin mi.... thx a lot .....i really appreciate it... so happen that you sms me... and so happen that that time i'm like so depressed and kept cryin... while listenin to my phantom cat...... hai~..... jus feel very down yesterday... night... keep cryin.... hai~.... anyway.. thx...
later goin runnin with lala... i jus wanna to run all my sad things out... all out !! OUT!!!!!!! so i won't be depressed.... i feel that the song TO BE FREE ... the words are all very meaningful.. especially some parts really says about mi... wat i wan.. wat i really want..... my ambitions..... i want that... but.....nvm.... hai~... dunno wat i'm tokin about... well got to go finished my homework.... or else no time to do le... ***************************The Phantom Cat rox...(Christabella and Ginger Tom)************************
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Saturday, March 06, 2004
To bE Free!!!
as i walk through the street of my life
i remember the friends that i've to come to know
how we began
in a life much simpler to hold
but my life took a change drastically
when he came
took mi under his wings of fame
too much to strong
was his love i could not return
Chorus:
All i want right now
Is to be free
To walk away from this dream
But i'll still sing my heart
And i will play the part
To show the world how simple life can be
My dream is to sing in a place
On a stage where the people can make me feel
Special and real
Singing songs of music so fine
But now what am i s'posed to do
I feel trapped in this dream that is holding back
What i truly feel
For my heart can hold back my tears
Chorus 2:
All i want from life is to be loved
By the man i can call my friend
To laugh and to cry
To jump and touch the sky
And never feel as though i can't be free
when i looked inside
I see myself
With you beside me
Take my hand
As we climb the walks of life
With children standing by
A home of love that's where we'll be
Repeat chorus...
And i'll be me
To be loved
To be free
Just to be with him...
i smiled @ 11:31 PM
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Thursday, March 04, 2004
AWWA hOme and The Phantom CAT!!!!!
now listening to S.H.E songs.... still thinkin bout next saturady... and tml english tuition... how?????? i kept avoidin all these but i know i will have to decide... hai~........... today in school was quite pissed off...... then some more stupid idiot stuff happen........ hai... dun wish to say anymore.... hate school a lot le........ went to awwa home.. for cip.... with... shing, puay hoon, jocelyn,pearlyn, wansu, the twin, darryl, jia ying, sonia, chi lin, hanif , ee meng, prilala and huili........did i miss out anyone.... nvm.... was quite fun today... kept takin pics with chi lin digi cam and was laughing like mad... and was fun playing around with hui kiang... hahaa... she hoh.... hmm... okay lol... still dunno she how old..... she quite pretty lah... then learn a couple of magic tricks... hmm... not bad hah... it's fun knowin all the old ppl... they are nice...:):):) after tt went to eat KFC together then we took lots of lame and fun photos... and quess wat? i was glad tt i manage to have a photo with my idol.... HANIF!!!! hehe.... then went home by bus 159... reached home @ 7.30... but enter house onli 8.00... slpt through the whole half and hour outside my house.... hai~... who tell mi to lose my keys and nv bring HP and no one at home.... hmm... yarh..... now... for yesterday... it's so NICE!!!!!!!! THE PHANTOM CAT!!!!!!!! super nice.... went to somerset to meet ngng yesterday ... she makes us wait for her sssssooooooo damn long... hmmmm but luckily when we reach kalleng theatre.... BIG Big big bear quickly pass me the tickets adn we rushed in.... wow.... nice place and good seats... and we were jus in time... so damn lucky.... the songs were very nice... and i was attracted to a cat(gal) on stage.... although i cannot see her face... she dance very well... quite like her lah... she is the maid.. well lala knows lol.... hmm... then took pic with BIG big Big bear after after it ends... and it was like... 10.30? yupyup... so late... reached home at 11.30... sian lah.... then i went to clear all the food on kitchen table and study at 12.00am... wah lao... i was like so tired..... jus read a little redox then went to sleep at 12.30.... all the way to mornin.... but luckily i got study a little periodic table durin the bus journey to school lah.. hmm... think still can pass.... hope so.. (but i believe, but i believe.... yin wei wo men you ai qing....)-now listening.... *********************************mind flashed across lots of things.... thinking of the future.... leaving the past..... and now... jus wan to end my life here...*******************************************
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Wednesday, March 03, 2004
ONE bAD nEWS anD OnE GooD new???? maybe not...
today i skip ceramics workshop... opps.... bt got reasons one lah... cause later goin to watch musical-THE PHANTOM CAT!!! yup yup... so excited sia... kept smsin in class today...becasue of this... opps... wo bu shi gu yi de..... hehe.... now 5.00pm goin to meet huili , lala, jan later at toa payoh ..... maye wansu and mia goin.... maybe xueyin also .... mm.... dunno lah..... jus recieved letter from NKF and popular...... well NKF letter..... got two... one is from a person... thxing mi... well hois name jeremy.... he got the illness lah... but he is sweet.... so nice to be his friend..... and another one.... hai~~~... was like so happy to recieved it but.... hai... cannot go.... guess wat??? i cannot go to the s.h.e celebration.... sob****** cause it's during camp.... so sad.... got invitation from them then ... hai~.... nvm ........ welll need to go le.. bye....**************************i die also will try to attend the celebration...cause i have waited for very long le... **************************
i smiled @ 4:58 PM
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Monday, March 01, 2004
BROKE!!! agAIN!!!....
DIE LE!!! i have spent all my allowance and savings..... well... allowance gone... but still got a few dollars... in my savings... then tml still need to pay $9 for bio tys then $7 for ASC..... die... no money to pay.... spend $51.30 on birthday prezzi... for daddy and sista.... bought polo Shirt for dad and earings... necklance and card for sista.... like tt altogether $51.30 le..... shito..... really broke now.... still got a lot of ppl birthday this month..... die die die.... hmm...... how??? well nvm.... i see how.... hmm.. there is always a way....... well the most i go beg mama for $$$.... die lah... must thick skin go ask from her le.... shito...so got money to pay for the $16... school stuff..... quarral with her again lol.... she an to scold and beat mi one... i always so suai...nvm.... later got tuition... so stop bloggin le... *********************************TML DaDDY birthday.. goin out to celebrate....****************************************1st time in my life i bought a prezzi for daddy****************************
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